HAH..... yeah, I'm all pessimistic today. Here's the gist:
Cried to the point of getting sick last night. Vomited. Cried myself to sleep. Wouldn't wake up this morning. Mom yelled and called me pathetic. Got to school late. Went to first period crying. Mrs.Davis took me to the counselor. She held my hand. Talked to the counselor. Managed to get out of first, second, and third period. Texted my aunt throughout the whole day. Wasted time in fourth period. Went to lunch with Kailey. Didn't eat. Cried silently in homeroom. Rushed to theatre in hopes of telling Mrs.Martinez that I didn't want to do the play. Too late. Did the play. SUCKED. Got made fun of. Finally burst with a: "Oh, well I'm sorry. I'm depressed, orphaned, and gay- that my excuse. Cried myself to sleep yesterday. thanks SO much for NOT being inconsiderate bigotry-prone assholes!" Got pushed against the lockers.... again. Hid my face for the rest of the day in a hoodie. Got yelled at by a teacher to take it off. Took it off with sass. Got mad and nearly cried. Wasted more time. Found out it was Halloween. o.o
UGGGGH. HALLOWEEN ON TOP OF THIS!?!? ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?! I mean, I even told my person: "I hate candy and whiney children... Halloween just ain't a good combo for me. The only upside are the costumes- and today I'm just not feeling it."
To make things worse...
me: uggggggggh- i hate today.
Kailey: but we get to do the play!
me: but it's a dumb play, and I have to be a man... I don't want to be a man!
Kailey: ....so you're gonna be gay?
KAILEY MARIE! I'll have you know that homosexuality doesn't change your gender!! and another thing, I'd also tell yo--
Kailey: okay, okay... no need to lecture
me: *mumbles* fucking bitch
Kailey: what was that?
me: Nothing.... *glare*
sooooooooooo... yeah- pessimism
on the upside... when my mom forced me to go trick or treating... I had no costume planned, so I threw on some of my usual clothes and I dressed up as a gay rights activist XDDD good times.
and there was also a train... The guy stopped and asked when I was with Kailey and Kodie of we wanted a ride, and I said: "Nah, not unless y'all can take me to Hogwarts..." XD and there was a jerkish moment when I ran into Shayanne... (she thought my brother was a girl- but when we met, she thought I was a guy... so I'm convinced it's a family thing. XD we're never the right gender)... and.... there was a funny thing. I said "VIP" and Kailey said "OH! YEAH!!! VIP-ness!" XDDDD and... lol, I got real immature. Let's leave it at that...